hihihi so happy to be here again!!

woh! seriously long never blog at blogger d... nw using frenster to blog.. well i bumped back into blogger when i wanted to visit my fren, mao's blog.. and i realised, wao! its been one yr or more since i was last here! and its actually a wonderful thing to look back at the pass, sop nostalgic~
Lol~ looking back the previous blog i was still struggling at the cross road of life with which route to take... but here i am today, chosen the road of JPA to take up engineering and go to the states.. in previous blog i said that i'm gonna be condemned if i was forced to stay science.. well, it's more than i could imagine... not only have i remain a sc student, i have chosen to do Physics, sumthg which i could never have thought of! it's amazing how God works! i never thought tht i could get JPA!!
well, i am really like the stiff-necked israelites who always complain to God abt everything! i used to thank God alot tht he brought me this blessing of scholarhship, cus i really leanrt alot in INTEC uitm... however as days go by and i encountered hardships.. i started to complaint tht if i have not been herre i wouldnt be so stressed up and so on.. well... forgetful and ungrateful human i am..!! shouldnt be liddat o! T.T yaya repenting...
life really getting tough here cos I have changed to become someone who always want perfect marks... 100 or above 90... and its so discouraging when i couldnt get despite of the hardwork invested.. And i started to bury myself in piles of books and studies... that i literally forget that the world is still spinning.. and there's still a blue blue sky outside! until the day b4 i lead in worship, i found myself so depress tht i think i might go coo coo anytime then... then i chat with my brother thru the net and he said i have to reformat my brain.. i have neglected so many things cuz of my studies.. and life is not all abt studies.. i shouldnt chase after sumthg which at the end of the day, is sumthg found to be nothing...chase after wind in short... that made me realise alot... and i am getting better now... God encouraged me when many ppl complimented on the wonderful leading, and when he gave me a chance to encouraged anotehr brother in christ! so wonderful!
lol i dunno whether i am considered as stagnant, worsen or improved in my relationship w God... thinking much only make it confusing. Wat i could do now is just to try my best step by step to follow him as close as i could... not forcing myself to be perfect.. yapp...
dunno y i started to blog here leh... don have many frens at blogger and i wonder who wud read >.!